Total 360

So, I haven’t wrote anything in a while because I really haven’t had anything to say. I’ve also been super busy since I went back to work! Over the past 6 months though my live has literally changed 100%! At this point in my life I am both happier and healthier than I have been in a very long time. My life has literally been great.

The most important thing is that my family is healthy. My four nephews are all happy and that is the most important thing in my life! My one nephew also just learned to say “Aunt Karlee” and “Aunt Karlee’s Hotdogs.” Yup, I'm that crazy, proud aunt!

My business has been doing really well. I have actually been enjoying work a lot, which is surprising because I really didn’t want to go back to work. I was nervous about being back in public after everything I was going through and also stressed about having to work every single day. All of my customers have been super nice as usual, but my mom, aunt, and I also redid the outside of my business making it a happier place to be! It has definitely made being at work so much more fun! I even have a hammock now so I can take a nap haha! My business is also going to be shown on the tv show Discover Wisconsin. I’m definitely not one to public speak or talk on a camera, but I was so excited for the opportunity to do an interview with them. I was extremely nervous, so let’s hope it’s not too awkward! Sometimes I just keep talking when I get nervous. My mom, my aunt, and my friend were all there to help me through it and multiple friends messaged me prior to encourage me!

I am at a super good place with my mental health. I’ve done so much work on myself, working on self love every single day. I can’t even tell you the last time my mental health was this good. I still go to my coach not because I need it, but because I absolutely LOVE going to her. She helps me become a happier, healthier, and more successful person every time I meet with her. She's also super proud and shocked at how far I have come, given the situation I was in six months ago. I also still go to my abuse class because that also only helps me become a better person and I like the people in my class! My anxiety is no where near what it use to be. I obviously have times/situations where is rises, but for the most part it has gone done a ton!

My physical health is also great. I’ve gained about 10lbs in the past six months, but that happens! I mean come on, I own a hot dog stand and I planned my vacation to new York around doughnuts and milkshakes! Anyways, I no longer freak out about my food, my weight, or the way I look. My belly will always be there, I just love food too much! In the next couple of weeks I will be competing in my first powerlifting meet and it’s safe to say I’m the strongest I have ever been, especially my legs! My coach is pretty awesome and excellent at what he does. He tells me I remind him of Chelsea Handler because I bitch at him how she bitches at her trainer haha! I’m still extremely nervous about people watching me lift at my meet, but my best friends and coach will be there to support me!

Next week my abuse class starts back up for the second session and I also start my class for my life coaching. For a while, I only wanted to become a life coach for people who were coming out of abusive situations and people with learning disabilities, but I now also want to become a life coach for young entrepreneurs. I love learning from people who have actually experienced the same situations I am going through myself. I feel they are the best teachers, so I wish to help people from my experiences. I have had 2 very toxic relationships. I have dyslexia and I bought my first business at 22 years old and my second at 24 years old. I became an entrepreneur 4 months after graduating college with a business degree. I'd like to teach other young individuals that it is possible to do it all by yourself! I’m still growing, so my goals could change, but for right now that’s where I’m at.

Throughout my healing process I have met so many new life long friends. People who I have helped and people who have helped me. During these past six months I have also had people ask if I regret anything and my answer is ABSOLUTELY NOT! There is not a single thing that I have said or done that I regret because it’s the truth, it’s what I have lived through, and it’s what makes me who I am today! If I would have never been through these situations I would have never realized things about myself that I needed to realize! So, the short answer would be no!

I absolutely love where I am at in my life. I obviously still have bad days because I’m human, but nothing like they used to be or nothing about what I used to have bad days about. I no longer feel drained or like I'm being weighed down. Don’t get me wrong, I still like my 12 hours of sleep, but I have a lot more energy than I used to.

I’m getting closer to the point that I will date again soon, but this time around I’m going to be much more picky. I mean I already am, but I’m no longer going to put up with shit I shouldn’t have to deal with. I don’t drink or do drugs, so I’m not looking for someone who parties a lot or spends their weekends at the bar. That's just a personal choice. I absolutely love food, adventures, and traveling, so I have no problem spending $100 on dinner, spending all my money on vacations and experiences, or traveling 1.5 hours for doughnuts! It’s all about priorities and those are mine! I’m not going to lower my standards for something or someone that wont work for me and either should you! Know your worth, know you deserve to be loved, and know that you deserve respect and honesty!

I now know what I deserve and I won’t settle for anything less and nobody should!

I have grown! I no longer fit in the situation I was once in. My health and happiness can only get better from here! Compared to six months ago, I’m a totally different person and I wouldn't change it for the world!