62-What's to Come With me

I am no longer an abuse victim, but an abuse survivor. I am going to heal and I am going to be one badass empowering woman. I have very strong women around me and it’s only going to get better from here. I hope to eventually find true love and have children, but not until I’m fully healed. Right now I am focusing on Karlee. It’s basically been 11 years since I have been single and I am ready to just do me! I’m going to keep expanding my business because I don’t need any man to take care of me. I am going to work on becoming a better person and helping those that need my help. I hope to one day help people that have been abused and also people who have learning disabilities. My goal is to help children in schools that are struggling to know that everyone is different and they are not dumb. Some things they are good at other kids are not, and I will remind them of this. I also want to try and help people to become more understanding of individuals that struggle, so they can teach their children that it is not ok to make fun of people that are different. Life is hard, so don’t be an asshole. I also want people to remember that those that are mean don’t have an issue with you, but actually with them. At one point I was one of these people, so I can speak from experience.

I am going to empower women and stand up against abuse. There is no justice to abuse, but if we can educate people on the topic it can help others to overcome it and get out of their shitty situations. I will forever stand against it and help those that want my help. I want to one day become a coach for abuse victims and struggling individuals. As of recently I have decided that I want to become a life coach and an online coach just like my coach. I want to own a healing center. I am obviously going to wait until I am fully healed, but that is my goal. It is something that really excites me.

Women deserve to do things that make them happy and strong just like men do. We should not have to do what a man expects us to do. I don’t like to cook, so I don’t have to cook. I don’t mind cleaning, but I’m not going to be made to do it. Sex is not my job as a female. If I want to have sex, then fine, but I will never be made to have sex with a man ever again. If someone tells me that “if I don’t have sex with my boyfriend/husband he will cheat on me” then so be it. If my boyfriend/husband cheats on me for a reason like that then I wasn’t meant to be with them in the first place. I think that’s very important for women to remember that. Women need to empower each other to help support each other in what is right and wrong. I don’t ever want my future daughter to be abused, so I’m going to teach her to be empowering and do whatever the hell she wants to do. This is also what I want to do for other women. I also will teach my future sons that women need to be respected just like men.

I am also choosing to be independent. I want to become one of the women I look up to. I am going to take myself to dinner, I am going to take myself to the movies, and I am just going to do a bunch of things alone. I want to get so comfortable doing these things that I do them on a regular basis. I am not going to worry about if people think I’m weird or a loner. I’m just going to do it. I also will not lower my standards. I am working on becoming more understanding and an altogether better person, but I am choosing to heal and wait for a man that is best for my mental health. By lowering my standards it is only going to hurt me in the long run! This goes for anyone.

These things are only going to make me stronger! I was not able to express myself or be myself for 2.5 years. I was not able to express my feelings without getting yelled at or made to feel like shit. Some people might think I’m crazy, but that’s just an opinion. I am now free and plan to continue to grow and put myself first. I am going to be honest with myself and when a situation isn’t right for me I am going to leave. I’m just living freely and doing what’s best for my mental health and I’m going to continue to do so.

I AM BECOMING ONE BADASS ABUSE SURVIVOR!